Months ago I decided to read through the entire Bible in 90 days. I declared it would be easy, just 12 pages a day. It started off well. I was excited. I told everyone who asked about it what I was doing. The idea sounded great…
Honestly though? I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t ready for such a big task spiritually. Though I had been praying daily and going to Bible study and Church weekly, I hadn’t been spending much time with God. When I saw the challenge I thought it would get me back into the Word. I thought that this challenge would force me to spend time reading my Bible…
Did you see that word I used in the last sentence? Force. I needed something to “force” me to spend time with my Father, reading a Book that I should have read long ago. That word right there should have told me I wasn’t ready. More than not being ready, it should have shown me that I was going about it all wrong.
Did I pray about the challenge before signing up? Yes. Did I listen for God’s answer? No. Maybe if I would have asked Him He would have told me to wait and showed me instead what He wanted to do. Maybe He would have prepared me for the challenge if I would have asked. Maybe He would have said yes, and reminded me to lean on Him when I was tired and weary and then the reading wouldn’t have been such a challenge to find time for.
I liked the idea of the “challenge” and jumped in before really asking God what He thought. I’ve tried to be more in tune with God’s will for my life lately. I’ve been spending more time in prayer, been trying to check in with God hourly, reading small bits of the Bible daily, and am trying to work on some areas of sinfulness in my life. I know that the Bible in 90 Days Challenge is being done again in July and maybe I will be ready to take on (and complete) the challenge then. Whatever I do I know that I will need to ask God to help me through it because it’s a lot bigger task than I thought it was and the only way I would get through it would with be with Him carrying me.